My Beloved, My Forever

It’s been ages since my last blog post. To be exact, it’s been 135 days if my memory doesn’t fail me. (I can’t be a hundred percent sure now). If I tried to update this thing on everything we’ve been through it would kill me. But I’ll try anyways. XD

So let’s see big events, ah! At the first DnD after the Dunes mission, we shared our first kiss. Needless to say, I sucked at it but Maggie aided me in that department. Then came March 6th, the Friday of Fun where my band Life’s Better Sides performed their first gig at Club Relevant. It was great. After that Maggie and I slowly got together more often, and fell deeper in love with one another. Oooh! Another memorable moment, although disturbingly so was the week where a bunch of shit went down with my mom and I thought I was about to be torn away from Maggie, from my friends, from the life I’d built here for quite some time. Luckily we worked it out, and are still kinda working it out but it’s better now. From there, there was spring break/passover/she-was-sick-week. I’d come over virtually everyday and she was always sick and said she wouldn’t kiss me but we still did. I was sick for a little, but I got over it pretty quickly. I attended both Seders and that was…different to say the least. XD It was funny though during the actual spring break because one time she was blowing her nose continuously and she looked at me and was like “How can you look at me like that when I’m so disgusting?” and so i said, “Because I love you.” And she just shrugged her shoulders at it. After that, I can say that I’ve attended a few Saturday services at the Temple, and I went to Purim and to her Bat Mitzvah (which was very recent). Needless to say, I’m slowly being converted over to her religion (which of course will make it easier on us when we marry ). There are other big events in there, though I’m not gonna allow them to become semi-public information. There’s secrets I would like to keep (let your dirty minds wander you sick bastards XD ). Aside from that I don’t believe I’ve missed anything too important. With the exception of yesterday, but I’d like to block that part out of my memory for now.

On the other hand, my writing’s have slowed. While Maggie was my perfect muse when she wasn’t mine, now that she is I find it considerably harder to write. Mind you between her, my job, school, and my mentorship it was hard to find the freetime a lot of the time to create lyrics again. But I’ve been working on it! Oooh! That’s what I forgot. I has job. I earn minimum wage but I work like 24 hours a week so in two weeks time i earn like $340. But they’ve given me a semi-break from the job and I REALLY NEED TO WORK AGAIN! Monies is depleting rapidly. And I needs monies. And I would post the song that the title came from, but it’s already on my facebook and if you don’t have a facebook you fail at life. XD

And on the final note, we’re apparently the fricking cutest thing since…I don’t remember what exactly Meagan said but she called us cute. More specifically, it’s me that’s cute apparently, not so much Maggie. Which is weird, because I’m not sure the guy should be the cute one in a relationship. XD

What If You’re the Best Thing About Me?

Titled from Savage Garden’s song “The Best Thing” off of their album Affirmation. It really is a lovely album, and I’m not ashamed to listen to them (blame my mother for this, until 6th grade, pop was all I listened to). xD

So this week was very interesting. It started out boring (don’t all weeks do this to me?) and ended with figurative fireworks on Valentine’s Day. For all you mosh shippers out there, you’ll be glad to know that Maggie decided to say “yes” and we’re officially bf and gf. It’s funny because I got her a hoodie and some flowers (a red rose and a white CARNATION, happy editing) in a glass vase, and my mom got her chocorooms which are delicious.

But I’m getting ahead of myself here, I should talk about the Nags Head trip. Maggie arrived at about 9:30 or so, and we left around 10. At the Border Station, we stopped and I took up the driving responsibilities. I’m hoping Maggie wasn’t too worried about dying then . We got most of the way there with me driving in one piece, so that was good. Then we clambered up the dunes (which included a race up the little steep dune that me and Jared used to do all the time as kids). As we begun running, I grabbed Maggie’s hand in an attempt to not leave her behind. She started falling behind and was becoming like deadweight and just as Jared was about to win…I kinda accidentally tumbled a crap load of sand onto his leg xD. Then we just ran around all the sands trying to find our old spot. I think I should’ve realized something was up when Maggie was okay with holding my hand, but anyways. We found a sand dune that we could ride down and we decided to try this by sitting down and pushing forward like a sled. Didn’t work so well, we got stuck. So I turned sideways and tumbled down the hill. It was a while before I stopped. It was great.

Well then we left to drop off my aunt at work (*sigh* the end to such a great NC trip). When we arrived at my house Maggie had ice cream and then we went for chinese food at the Happy Buffet. We got back, Jared went skating, and me and Maggie stayed in my room. This is where it all went down. Maggie takes out her camera (she said earlier this week she wanted to take a particular picture) and then holds my ring (which I had given her with the expectation that I’d get it back before the end of the day) and says “You know, you’re not gonna get this back until we break up.” With that expectation in mind, I managed to skip the whole fact that she was saying yes and went straight to the part of the break up ’cause I wanted my ring back. So epic fail on my part, as she didn’t get the picture she wanted (Gibbings wanted to see it too apparently).

Alright well song time. “Flower Picking” by Life’s Better Sides off the love album “On the Concepts of Love and Peace”. Yeah, I changed the title from that simplistic “Love Is In Everything”. xD.

Like the petals of a rose
You dance beautiful upon the wind
And as if no one knows
You bring happiness here again
Like the song of a siren
Your call pierces me now so deep
And just as a bird stops flying
You come down so swift to me

Chorus:
And you picked me up, from the losses from the hurt
Took me roots and all, from the safety of the dirt
And my emotions took hold, I’ve never been so blunt
Just remember a flower can only be picked once

Like a star amidst the night
You led me on my way back home
Like a fire still breathing life
You gave me the spark to carry on alone
But like one good turn
Deserves another turn if just for love
So now do we learn
Of the things this world spoke of

Chorus repeat

But I’m just glad
Of all those that you coulda chose
You went and picked me
And I swear I am
Glad to be here, oh dear my dear
Amongst the blissful plenty

Excuse the thorns
For such a long time it was all
That I, that I had ever known
Just please don’t
Leave me, don’t say goodnight
And make me walk this world alone

Then like the wings of a mother bird
You held me tight and held me close
I let all of your feathers dress the hurt
And so you gave me a love to show

Like a star amidst the night
You led me on my way back home
Like a fire still breathing life
You gave me a way to not walk the world alone!

Chorus repeat
Chorus repea

A Pretty Face Through the Reflection of the World

Titled from the Life’s Better Sides song “Reflection of the World”. Actually at this rate it may just be a song I keep for a solo album. Anyways, it’ll be at the end of its post in all its glory (fyi Maggie, this is that 7 min long song I was talking about earlier xD ).

This week started off pretty much like any other one, Sunday I woke up to two guys at my house and a really bad headache (not really with the headache thing though, it just sounded more weird that way). Monday, sucked as all mondays do, but Maggie was there to talk with so it was all good. Then Monday night came a-swinging around and it all became a different story. Maggie was having some issues, some of which were long overdue in their handling, and apparently I was the only one that could help her. So, having dealt with lots of the same stuff before (or at least similar in the degree of severity) I tried my best to help her through these troubled times. Basic stuff, you know, making her feel like she’s not alone in this…because she’s not, being nice, etc. etc. whatever else keeps a person from wandering off the deep end. It was then that she decided to tell me that she admits that she’d been treating me like crap over the last few months. And that despite all of this, I’d been there.

So I replied with something along the lines “Despite all of the crap, I was happy at some moments.” Which she questioned about so I said, “Well…it was just that at least then I could be around you. I could feel that someone outside my family cared about me in a loving way, even if it were only an illusion”. Then I checked my email and her blog and I discovered a little more about her and her feelings. I won’t go into overkill with the details, but I found myself strengthened in my own feelings for her.

Well that’s where it stands now. But I guess I should go back and talk about my party and then Allen’s party which came before that. My party was pretty awesome, part band meetting, part party. After practicing a little, we moved on to video games, watching Maria Holic in my room (awesome anime btw), and making 7-11 runs and playing CTF and blind man’s bluff/fish of water at the park. Maggie seemed “a little more in love with me” (to quote her more or less exactly) that day and hugged me a little more than usual. ‘Course that’s probably just because it was my birthday (party).

Allen’s party was pretty cool too. We started out at the day at his house, went over to the mall for a little bit (after being told we’d need an 18 year old to get into chuck e. cheeses), then went back over to chuck e cheeses with said 18 y.o. and had fun. Then we left to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show down in Norfolk, which was pretty epic and fun then we got back played some games listened to music and sleeped.

What a weekend, no? Well, until next time fellow bloggers allow me to bid you a fine farewell, adieu, adieu. So here it is, “Reflection of the World” by LBS or Me.

The first impression may have left it’s mark
Deeper down where the arrow pierced my heart!
It seems though God and time couldn’t let me be!
Because in the end you wouldn’t love me!

Best friends were the words spoken softly
As you tore a hole in the dreams, I wept awfully
I don’t think I can bear this curse for much longer!
Because truth be told, I am not the stronger!

No, no simply more devoted

But the bigger you are the harder you will fall
The harder you fall, the faster you realize it all
And you start to see just what built your wall
Will you harken back when all the angels call
Collect, you’re such a wreck

And you denied me my dreams, then denied me the very right
To end the nightmares created in their death!
You knew you were my everything, that much was in the light
And you could have figured out all the rest!

Oh, but it’s okay, it’s okay
Tell yourself that it will go away
I promise that come day
You will never ever see my face
I will vanish, past the mountains
Past the seas you see here
You will ask me what it’s about and
I will reply, it’s only love dear

Should I be happy with your course of action
Taken in the presentation of my attraction
Should that be the cost of my heartfelt confession
And tell me then should this all be a lesson?

Well, when the truth catches up to the wheels spinning out
Time will have likely been expecting what precipitates down
Your eyes will open to the truth that dawned on me ages ago
And out from the darkness, you will emerge, you will know!

The pain that I have suffered, when I told you I would have no other lover!
And you tossed that notion aside, as if what I had told you was a lie!
Even though you looked into my eyes, and I said that for you I would die!
You refused to believe my love true, when I alone, I would’ve loved you
Far beyond death, far beyond time
Far beyond the end, and I know not why

Just that all these feelings must have a meaning!
There must be something deeper within that holds it now!
Just that all these words should express my hurt!
There must be something deeper within that holds you down!

Yeah, the bigger you are the harder you’ll fall
The harder you fall, the faster you realize it all
And you start to see just what built your wall
Will you harken back when all the angels call
Collect, you’re such a wreck

What would you have me do?
I, I who loved you?
What would you have me do?
I, I who loved you?
What would you have me do?
I, I who loved you?
What would you have me do?
I, I who loved you?

(Solo)

So in the end then, can I not be happy?
(What would you have me do?)
While I’ve asked you before your heart denies me girl!
(I, I who loved you?)
But your bright eyes stare back at me
(What would you have me do?)
A pretty face through the reflection of the world!
(I, I who loved you?)
So in the end then, can I not be happy?
(What would you have me do?)
While I’ve asked you before your heart denies me girl!
(I, I who loved you?)
But your bright eyes stare back at me
(What would you have me do?)
A pretty face through the reflection of the world!
(I, I who loved you?)

Hail to the King, Who Brings the Rising Sun!

Titled from “We Won’t Surrender” by Life’s Better Sides off of the Courage album, The Fields of Courage and Winter.

I’ve finally returned…and as has a King in my story. Basically, the king referred to in this song is actually the King of Courage/Vincent Ballard, father of Lady Courage (Rowan’s char), otherwise known as the Whell Fog. I’d link you all to the file explaining The Whell Fog’s origins, but I’m afraid of recieving a very negative reaction from dearest Margaret. So I’d rather not, xD. Vincent, after the fall of the Original Sides of Life, runs to the Tower of Dreams where he locks himself inside, hoping to escape the world forever. The Better Sides of Life come and forcibly remove him from the Tower but as he sees the world he realized how much sweeter real life was because of its impurities. From this, the soldiers are hailing his return.

So many things have happened in the course of life since my last blog. Maggie went out with somebody and then dumped him (Matt). I tried to vouch for him right before she ended it (despite my obvious sadness at them going out, which I don’t think I can apologize enough for) but it failed. So yeah, I was depressed for a little spot of time about the fact that Maggie would choose somebody else among my friends over me. But I’ve come to grips with it, that even if we never go out, at least she calls me her best friend and I can still feel the way I do about her. Though the best friend thing is kinda iffy, I would assume she’s got other friends I’m not even aware of and she hasn’t been talking to me that much lately. Anyways, let’s stop talking about her now so I can focus on something else.

Shelby, having been grounded after running a stop sign, was released and we have since been up to our usual shenanigans. This time, we fit 9 people into a five person SUV, with three in the trunk (Me, Jared, and DJ) along with Allen, Joel, Lisa, Ariel, and Justin riding in the other places…and Shelby driving. All in all, it was a pretty fun snow day (minus the fact that there was NO FUCKING SNOW!) we just played around at the mall for a few hours. We ate up in the food court, went around to random shops (spent like half an hour in Spencer’s Gifts), huddled around outside EB Games and played Mortal Kombat vs. DC Universe which like these two old guys came to watch. Later we went off and finished the day by riding the carousel…which was epic. Oh! And then we went to Allen’s house, listened to him singing Sweeney Todd songs (which he was pretty good at), and watched E.T. Pretty full day there

Hmm…well I think that’s basically all the news to report. Except, oh yeah! OBAMA’S PRESIDENT NOW!!!! I may be a republican but damn am I glad Bush is gone, and we didn’t vote for McCain. Truth be told, we need a democrat in office right now. And also, next week is exams and my birthday is on monday! The party will be on Saturday (which Maggie is invited to attend). Now that’s everything. So, here’s the title song, “We Won’t Surrender”.

Hail to the king
Who brings the rising sun
Prevailed for we sing
Of the brighter dawn to come
Preside over the truth
And judge the judges gone bad
Hail for the sky blue
Has now finally come back

Pray to your gods
That this sun will last long
Prevail against all odds
To fight and never be wrong
Declare what you think
To all who would listen to you
Believe you’re not on the brink
And sail back to sky blue

From your echoes to your screams
To all your emotions in between
Raise the flags of war
Please raise them once more

Chorus:
Now the light shines through
To the field where only weeds have grown
Now a pretty flower blooms
In all of the hearts that we have known
To have given into winter
To have given up on spring
To have finally gone bitter
Without the prettiest of things
But we won’t surrender
We won’t surrender
Not to this long gone winter
We won’t surrender

So hail to the fire
That keeps our demons at bay
Alive inside we desire
To awaken our love today
Decide on your faith
Let no one sway your choice
Fight for what you say
And the right to raise your voice

From your echoes to your screams
To all your emotions in between
Raise the flags of war
Please raise them once more

Chorus repeat

From your echoes to your screams
To all your emotions in between
Raise the flags of war
Please raise them once more
In defiance of the truth
They declared they’ve won
So show them that you
Will march upon them at once

(Solo)

Hail to the king
That topples the evil in his heart
Prevailed for we sing
Of a kingdom that almost fell apart
But got their act together
And fought until the rising sun
Shined on them forever
Through courage their battle’s won

Chorus repeat

To your nightmares and your dreams
To all of the silence in between
From all your hate to your love
To all that beautiful sky above
Raise the flags of war
Please raise them once more

What the New Year Can Do

Titled from the Life’s Better Sides eponymous song. It’ll be at the end of this post…for those who wish to read it.

Aah, the new years; a celebration of the death of one year, and the beginning of a new. Of the fragility of life, and how it should be treasured in the moment. A time for resolution, to look back at the year you end in the fires of light cast out into the street and night and decide what needs to be changed. This year, I make a bold move towards a new era in my life. This year, I resolve to end the part of me I mark with the words Loveless across my knuckles. As many (or few) know, I am deeply obsessed with that anime and for a time believed it was so true about me that I would constantly write it in sharpie across my knuckles. This year I will rend that part from me, and do whatever necessary to transform myself into one Beloved.

Dearest Margaret saw fit a few days ago to reveal the reason as to why she would deny my offer. While she did say it was only basically the reason, so I will not make any brash assumptions about her character from the words transferred. Regardless, why must it be the one part of me that I have little control over that she would be disappointed with? Can a beautiful soul not counter a not-so-beautiful body?

On a less serious note, this New Years was a blast. Yes, I wasn’t surrounded by Maggie. Yes, I wasn’t with a majority of my friends, but I had a great time. We ate good food, played Gears of War 2 and Left 4 Dead, ate more good food, Shelby ran outside and stripped down to just his pants in the freezing cold and rand down screaming to the park. Ya know, that old chestnut. xD.

Well anyways, here’s a song to lead you all off, the title song. Sayonara!

“What the New Year Can Do” by Life’s Better Sides

And there’s a white christmas in the past
To tell us that this snow will last
So much longer into this new year
Than it ever did before I fear

And so here I stand in my winter coat
Lost without direction and hope
So much darker than this needs to be
But I can feel something rising in me

Chorus:
Oh, that’s what the new year can do
Just let the good things happen to you
There’s no need to be afraid
Things can always go your way
You just gotta pave that road
That leads where you wanna go
That’s what the new year can do
It can pull the hopeless through

And so all you down and lonely in this world
Don’t give up at the first sign of cold
I swear to you that things can change
Just wait for the first spring rains

And then watch this kingdom of ice fade
Into the ground by Valentine’s day
It may be so much darker than ever before
But you will make it, of this be sure

Chorus repeat

And sometimes the light
At the end of the tunnel
Is blinded out right
By our toil and our trouble
But don’t think about it
You know it’s there
The fire’s already lit
Just believe someone cares

Enough to keep it going
And going, till there’s no one in the tunnel
And stop the snow from falling
And falling, till ashes remain of our troubles

Chorus repeat
Chorus repeat

And that’s enough to keep us going
And going, till there’s no one in the tunnel
And that’ll stop the snow from falling
And falling, till ashes remain of our troubles

I’ll Be Your Wish, I’ll Be Your Dream, I’ll Be Your Fantasy

Titled from Savage Garden’s smash-hit “Truly, Madly, Deeply” from their self-titled debut album.

Well Maggie’s off again, this time to North Carolina. *sigh*, I miss her. *snaps out of it* Funny conversations have been had with her though, like one where she was in this closet. xD And we started talking about the dunes down in Nags Head, and how we should go there, then find a secluded part (for the record the last past was her suggestion) . She said it was just about getting away from the tourists. Naturally I said “Sure”. lol

Aside from my Maggie-less-ness, life’s been pretty good actually. My family entered into a family feud with the Castanedas for the second time, despite the fact that we’re usually friends, and finally that simmered down enough for them to come to the gig yesterday. Which wasn’t that bad, excluding the technical troubles, and the inexperience of the drummer playing our songs. After our set, me and Jacob jammed on guitar and drums and I think Jonathan was playing a little bit too. It was hard to hear his bass through any of this. After my band and Jared’s band played, we moved on to the acapella section and decided to sing random songs and Christmas songs as well (it was fun).

Then me, Gibbings, Heather, and Jacob went upstairs to watch random shit on youtube. After turning down AMV Hell, we went looking for Code Geass: The Abridged Series which actually isn’t that bad. Then right after Jonathan left, Jacob started tickling Heather again and they accidentally called Jonathan using the cell phone in Heather’s pocket. They had some fun on my bed after they cleared that up, and by fun I mean they entered into a pseudo-wrestling match. And I unintentionally burned Heather. Pretty good too. I heard her say icky, so immediately I youtubed the Icky Vicky song from Fairly Odd Parents. And I forgot her first name was Victoria. Brilliant move on my part.

The weather’s pissing me off though. It’s winter. It’s supposed to be bloody fricking cold. And it’s warm…like going-to-be-70-degrees-today-warm. Oh well, perhaps Mr. Winter will come around by my birthday. Speaking of which, here ya go “Welcome, Mr. Winter, To Our Kingdom of Ice” by Life’s Better Sides off of The Field of Courage and Winter.

The words from winters lips give breath
To storms that’ll blanket the world in step
To the tune of the winter melody a-playing in my heart
A whisper of an echo of a soft sweet voice
Gives light to love, here we make a choice
For the face amidst the winter to be playing in my art

At play at last we are, in the deepening snow
Look ahead instead to the future that holds your rose
It’s beauty in purest form come knocking on my door
Then play on and on and longer till I say
That you may not play anymore at all today
But rest assured my dear we’ll have retired long before

So that we may play a different sort of game
At a time when only our love shall remain

Chorus:
So dearest Mr. Winter, I’m glad that you came to town
Build up your snowmen, before spring knocks ‘em down
And if a time should come, when this won’t suffice
Then welcome, Mr. Winter, to our Kingdom of Ice

The smile plays a while as the mind wonders
On whether this is wrong or right, well no longer
If the smile plays a lyre on your heart then let it do so
Then recompense once this world returns
Immersed in ice, how could we ever get burned?
Maybe the smiles lit a fire in the stomach of tomorrow

If you change the rules, you change the game
But the love is the one thing that stays the same

Chorus repeat

(Short Instrumental)

Well it’s too cold you say
And I return that there can be no better day
But the wind’s picked up
To give flight to all of the ships of love
So are you coming?
Better start running
Or the world will give you up

But its too cold you say
And I return c’mon lets take this all the way
The windchill doesn’t really matter
If you’ve got a smile on your face

So lay asleep true angel here in the snow
Look ahead instead, to the future that holds your rose!
Carry the secrets with you if you should go
But you ask questions that give answers you already know

Well it’s too cold you say
And I return that there can be no better day
But the wind’s picked up
To give flight to all of the ships of love

Oh, its too cold you say
So don’t go I beg and plead and scream
It’s too cold you say-ay
This could be the realization of my dream!

(Solo into Key Shift Up)

Chorus repeat (New Key)
Chorus repeat (New Key)

Oh!
But it’s too cold you say
(Welcome to our kingdom of ice)
It’s too cold to play-ay
(Mr. Winter! Mr. Winter!)
But it’s too cold you say

I Took My Love Down to Violet Hill, There We Sat in the Snow

Titled from Coldplay’s “Violet Hill”. I haven’t listened to that song (or Coldplay for that matter) in quite some time. With of course the exception of the occasional opportunities where the radio station decides “Hey, let’s play Viva la Vida again!”. Seriously, that song got overplayed.

I figured that the line was appropriate given that now it’s winter and it’s cold as all Hell outside. Seriously, I went out with a thick shirt, jacket, and my scarf and I still froze my ass off. Granted, I probably shoulda worn pants (lol jk). But I probably shoulda had my gloves.

So Maggie’s off in Florida/Georgia (one of the two) having her adventures, and I’m stuck at home doing nothing. Oh, but I am preparing for the semi-gig that we’re hosting Saturday, for which my band has yet to fully practice. I mean we’ve practiced in parts, and Jonathan needs to finish up learning his bass parts. And since Bryan can’t make it to the actual gig, I’m having Jared fill in for him. Oooh! And then that reminds me, come Wednesday with any luck my mom will put me on the car insurance which means I’m perfectly street legal. Hehehe. xD

After I finished watching the Dark Knight again (which Maggie said that can’t be good…come on…it was only twice…or thrice…or more xD), I went back to my room and talked to her a bit. Sometime during the conversation, I forget exactly how, but she ended up calling me a $5 chinese buffet. I took offense to that for two reasons a) I am actually Chinese and b) I’m worth a little more than $5

That’s all for now. Now, a song for you to read or ignore. Because as Maggie informed me, no one actually reads what happens after I say “That’s all, folks!” or “And now a song to lead you out!”. But I enjoy flaunting my writing skills to my inexistent audience. :p This one’s titled “After the Death of Love, I Called For You Mother Earth!”. This one was written for the Apathy album entitled “N/A” (get it?) and this takes place where John Doe, the Sloth, has been transported to a world he started writing about and created in a magical journal (which he realizes he is no longer writing, hence the first few lines) and has just gone through the first of three woes that he must endure (the story he wrote being titled Journey Through the Three Woes) the first being heartbreak. He tries to escape(which is why he’s calling for Mother Earth) but finds out that he is incapable of such, and must endure the rest of the story.

“After the Death of Love, I Called For You Mother Earth!” by Life’s Better Sides.

So deal dear with this ache
With the loss of the use of your arms
Ability suppressed by the stake
You claim in the words fire imprinted on
The silver leaves you turn over and over burn
Find the lies your winged mind shall learn
In the abyss, I ask you stare longingly at the light
Watch the abyss stare back in the dead of night!

Behold the truth red herring girl
My mistake, blame me, it’s always me, always
Substantiate blue in the world
Calling me away to die on some other day
For what is life if not so merry down this stream
In the hopes do you see something burning green
Green with envy for the world that he was denied
So open up now here I come, let me back inside

Mother Earth!
Your son is calling
Will you let him stand there on his own?
Mother of Hurt!
Do you hear him crying?
Will you never let him come back home?

Chorus:
If your open arms will not receive me
Then let your open eyes deceive me
I’ll run a dagger through both your hearts
I’ll make you smile while we all fall apart
If intent will betray your bloodied hand
Then stand beside me man and be damned!
I’ll run you through the course of the flame
I’ll make you live with only one word: pain!

A pulse pounds out the notes
You frantically try and sight read the shame
If I could laugh at what you wrote
I would have been playing the wrong game
For what is life if not so merry down this stream
In the hopes do you see something burning green
Green with envy for the world that he was denied
So open up now here I come, let me back inside

Mother Earth!
Your son is calling
Will you let him stand there on his own?
Mother of Hurt!
Do you hear him crying?
Will you never let him come back home?

Chorus repeat

So march me onwards, after the death of love
Know me not as the coward, as I once was
Let me now only glimpse, the stars that were above
The skies of the earth, that my mother spoke of
So march me onwards, after the death of love
Know me not as the coward, as I once was
Let me now only glimpse, the stars that were above
The skies of the earth, that my mother spoke of

Shed the tears over the cement cemetery
Where grows the tree you once called life
Are you afraid of returning to prospects dreary
Is that why you realize you abandoned the light!

So you know then the fate that lies ahead
March onwards to war, a rush of blood to the head!
Crimson were your skies the day the world did end
So crimson will they be when you end it again!

For what is life if not so merry down this stream
In the hopes do you see something burning green
Green with envy for the world that he was denied
So open up now here I come, let me back inside

Mother Earth!
Your son is calling
Will you let him stand there on his own?
Mother of Hurt!
Do you hear him crying?
Will you never let him come back home?

Chorus repeat

Mother Earth!
Your son is calling
Will you let him stand there on his own?
Mother of Hurt!
Do you hear him crying?
Will you never let him come back home?